So yeah i tried to think about cutting up those vintage linens and i chickened out.. They’re so purdy i can’t bring myself to cut them up. My husband says i should try and find duplicates of every linen that way i can cut one and keep one brilliant man i tell you i knew there was a reason i married that man! Well and because you know i love his annoying ass to death So that’s the plan… for now

My bones are starting to ache so i am preparing for another flare but hoping for the best. I hate it and i just cannot wait to see the doctor and get treated for all the crap that has been wrong with me for like ever. We’re enrolling in medical this month. It will cost us around $600 a month which is INSANE but we have to do it. I cannot suffer another day i am tired of battling life. I have battled depression, anxiety, scoliosis and neck problems, a thyroid condition and now what i think is RA for years and years on my own and untreated and i have just had enough i can’t take it anymore. I want to be able to live my life without as much struggle and pain. I know the problems i have will never go away but i can at least get help in making them to where i can deal with them. For the first time in my life i can honestly say i am looking forward to seeing the doctor!

My new replaced camera is on it’s way and should be here the day after tomorrow. I cannot wait to get it back! I have really really missed having a camera. I never want to be camera less again

Well we are moving the first weekend of September. We went and looked at a place today and fell in love with it. It’s got beautiful hardwood floors, a porch, a nice big eat in kitchen, lot’s of storage and tons of windows that let in beautiful light Not to mention the bonus room which is totally going to be my reading / sewing / computer room. It’s such a relief to know i will never again go without something to eat or drink because i cannot walk stairs.. the apartment has no stairs. That was so hard for me and really did a number on my emotions when i heard the dog cry because he had to go out and there was nothing i could do i could not walk the stairs my feet, ankles and legs hurt so bad every step was torture and then i was so thirsty and hungry and couldn’t even get a drink or something to eat i never want to go through that again.

I got my new Nikon D60 but the dang thing had a defect so i had to send it back and now i am camera less and going CRAZY! I miss it terribly i hope they hurry up and send me my new one. The AP wouldn’t work everything else worked but as soon as you turned it on apeture priority all hell broke lose. It was like i was trying to take a long exposure in the middle of the day the camera wasn’t taking in the light or the shutter wasn’t setting itself something idk. I also got the new 35mm f/1.8G lens which from the little time i got to use it is awesome! I can’t wait to get my new camera back to play around with it more.

Today i went thrift shopping to find some vintage goodies. I found some sheets & pillowcases i plan to up-cycle into a new quilt. I am looking forward to the project and praying i stay pain free so i can sew. So far i haven’t had another flare and i would love it to stay that way. I also ordered some repro 1930’s fabric i think i might mix it in with the quilt but I’m not sure if i want to save it for another quilt… we’ll see!

I bought a Nikon D60 anyway even if it doesn’t have the AF motor in it yeah i know i said in the last post i wasn’t going to but i just cannot stir away from Nikon. I bought the new 35mm f/1.8 AF-S lens anyway that will AF with the D60 body so i thought i would just use that lens and work on getting more that AF with that body. They are expensive but OH WELL lol i want Nikon. I am sure there will be days like today when the pain isn’t so bad that i can just manual focus anyhow so i am no longer worried about that. I will however miss my D80 i really did love that camera it was just perfect :/ I already miss it and i didn’t even ship it out yet.

We are moving AGAIN i don’t want to but we have to. There are days when it is very hard for me to walk up and down the stairs so we have to move. I can’t go all day with nothing to eat and drink and not being able to let the dogs out and it’s getting nearly impossible for me to keep this place clean and tidy. I’m pretty bummed about it but there’s really nothing i can do about it.

LIFE IS HARD

I had a good day today the pain wasn’t as bad as it has been so i was able to come online today for awhile. I’m selling my Nikon D80 to buy a smaller camera. I have a hard time picking it up when i am hurting bad so i can’t even use it anymore. I might as well try something smaller so i don’t have to give up photography all together. I was thinking of going back to the Canon Xti i had before. Although i would love to keep my D80 the Xti is better then not having anything. The Nikon D40 / 60 is out of the question because the lenses i like won’t AF and i don’t know if having to manual focus all the time would just make my wrists worse. I don’t think it is worth the risk when the Canon lenses AF so i won’t have to worry at all. Damn Nikon for taking the AF motor out

We went to Joe’s Crab Shack tonight and man was it delicious! Not only was it yummy but it was cool looking inside and fun. The music was great, the workers were friendly and attentive and the place just looked cool! I loved it there and am looking forward to going back. Their steam pots are to die for.. seriously!

I cannot manage to get myself into Bound South it might be the pain i have been in recently but i think i might just set that one aside and find something new to read. Anyway it’s late and i need some sleep.